It got emotional...

I hadn't intended to write a blog post today, but as I started to post on my social media, I thought it was best that my post would live here.

God did it again. The recent weeks of slow have quieted my mind, giving me lots of time to think, to meditate on God, and to pray. It's allowed me to ponder on things that I've set aside for another time, hadn't been ready to deal with yet. Today, through tears, I finally talked those over with God, pouring my heart out and sharing how I really felt about some things. It was conversation just like talking to and old friend laying my whole heart out on the table. Real. Raw. Open. Humbled. As I finished talking to God, like He always does when we have one of those "come to Jesus meetin's", He gave me a gentle nudge.

As tears fell, an old-testament book and a chapter number popped into my mind. That's been God's pattern of talking to me the last few years... when I get real raw & open with Him, letting Him into the depth of my core, He gives me a book and a chapter. It's always so random... usually somewhere I've never really dug into before. Sometimes I'm nervous to see what it says, and sometimes I can't get the bible opened fast enough. Today was just the same. I slowly thumbed through the pages not sure what God was going to say to me today. Would He tell me it would all be okay? Would He think I was over-thinking this? Would He tell me I was wrong and correct me? Would He show me a perspective I hadn't thought of or guide me in a new direction?

Then, like balm to my soul, His words practically leaped off the page at me. I don't know that I've ever read that portion of scripture, and if I have, it didn't resonate with me like it did today. The words took hold in a way like never before... just what I needed to hear in this moment. Just like that, God's peace washed over me, and the tears disappeared.

Opening up to God can sometimes be hard. Sometimes you have to deal with things that truthfully, you just don't want to confront. Sometimes... the wound hurts. But just like a gentle daddy, our Heavenly Father picks up the broken pieces and softly begins to speak...

It's true what the bible says in Hebrews 4:12, that the scriptures are His living Word. We speak audibly, but He wrote His down. Everything we ever needed to know about life is in the book if we'll read it.

• Kimberly •

*And for the record, my talk with God had nothing to do with Coronavirus. lol. He told me not to fear, so I have chosen to look at it as an opportunity.